I'm sitting here at Panera sipping my free 3.99 pumpkin spice latte and thinking about what I need to do. As I ponder about today's plans,certain questions pop into my mind. Will I ever be "settled" will I ever be at a point in my life where I am in a career or a company that I can see myself staying at?
The other day I was reading a survey for a job position and thinking, "I'm 31 years old now and I am still filling out an application." Is it because of the economy? Or is it because God is still shifting me for the perfect job he has for me? Does God have a Starbucks position for me that I will love forever and never want to leave? Another question immediately follows with "Haven't I been ready for one of those perfect positions for a while now!?"
Then I wonder, all the daytime I have free, what should I do? should I travel short trips and take photos? Should I state a book? Should I email all the possible companies I know, which are not many, and stalk them until they give in and give that perfect job? I also wonder if my brain could handle the academics for Vet Assistant? My mind goes crazy once in a while. :)
Last Thursday I spent a wonderful fall birthday with a best friend shopping antique stores and walking around a park and finally going to a great fondue place, The Melting Pot. It was so nice to just hang out, not only for me but for her, who is an overworked private school teacher.
I still picture myself out in the country, big 100 year old farmhouse with all sorts of random animals running all around the place. You would think at 31 I'd feel settled. You would think I'd be where I'm "supposed to be" by now. I feel like I'm wandering about looking and searching.
I know someone greater knows where I am supposed to be, but it'd be nice for little hints :)
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